Second day of using this wiki as my journal. I’m liking dokuwiki, much more than ikiwiki even though I know ikiwiki is technically superior. This allows me to just get stuff done. I think this is a reflection on what I should do for other stuff. e.g. picking a laptop - I should just get a mac as it’ll allow me to get on and do stuff rather than endless faffing about with setting up linux. Although probably setting up KDE or GNOME will mean I just set and forget and then get on with things. Although maybe the cheap Thinkpad is what I should do. We’ll see.
I don’t know if it is the journalling but today was a lot better than yesterday. It took me a while to go to sleep as I keep hearing things and thinking it’s a burglar or running through in my mind what I’d do if it was. I even went outside to look about as there were lots of strange noises but it was just the neighbour behind us messing about in his garage. I wasn’t as tired today as yesterday. I felt more motivated. I want to be more organised at work and need to still setup my system - must keep it simple! Having some meetings with actual work to do helped too. I still spent a while faffing with my own site, but now that I like it I feel good about it. Was just transferring over the old material and then I’ll get rid of ikiwiki. I just need to spend time working out things that need to be done then do them. I think it’ll do me good, both performance wise at work and motivation for me. I still sometimes think that my job is pointless and I don’t add anything. The whole purpose of the company is to making money for shareholders. That is the point of all public companies but it’s so selfish and capitalist. As much as I like money, only because that’s the way the world works, it’s still meaningless. I wonder how far I can keep this up. It’s only been 2 days but let’s see if it’s the honeymoon effect or not.
Keeping Lorelai’s journal and this one does take a chunk of time. I feel like each evening I’m not actually going to do anything other than my chores and then journal before it’s time for bed. Maybe that’s okay. I was a lot better with Lorelai. Very little screaming at each other. I just need to be patient and calm. Thinking that I could be doing something else always makes me mad and impatient. Whereas if I can try and enjoy the moment and not have other things that I think I should be doing then it makes reading stories or playing a lot easier. Maybe aligning with just journaling and read news/browsing the web will work well. Writing could be my new hobby. I do want to setup FreeBSD/Linux on the server. It could be doing much more and feels like a waste. Or I spent time at work either journalling or planning out other stuff. I like journalling at home as I’m tired by 8/9pm and this doesn’t require effort, merely the act of typing what I’m thinking. I should try and go to bed at 9 and read too. I probably should keep the two separate as no-one will want to read this and I don’t want anyone to read it. This is just to help me think things through. Perhaps I can come back later and read it and then make a book from it.
I do still like the idea of writing a book, who knows on what, maybe just my thoughts or a random story that has no real purpose or story. I do like films like that.
I should admit to myself I’ll have no time to do anything extra. Work, bath/bedtime, chores, writing and then reading and bed. Should I give up on python. I’m not going to change job or use it at work really. I should learn Spotfire/SQL to use at work. Again, if I got a mac I could use Excel for managing finances. I want to use linux but it’s not going to happen. It’s a bit hypocritical to talk about open source and then use mac and Excel. I’m going to have to look after Lorelai all the time when the babies come. Looking forward to buying the new car! It’ll be fun. Raising children is a good hobby (something I spend my time doing). I should carve out my lunch break at work and do other stuff I want, like python or whatever. I’m going to have years later on to do stuff.
Don’t compare myself to others - I should find some nice quotes. I feel like I could just write for days, All these thoughts over the years. Maybe I should journal at lunch time at work as well. I like capturing photos, videos, and writing our journey. Writing a book is appealing, even if it’s only for us to read.
Wonder if there’s a word count plugin. How should I tag posts? How to I capture the questions I ask myself so I can answer them. Maybe read over the weeks stuff? Nah just type and if I think of it later then I can answer it. I should build a modest, compact desktop that’s suited for videos and photos, and then a super lightweight but not dire keyboard, laptop for writing, reading and general browsing. Maybe at work lunch times I can write my main blog entries. I should keep a reasonable blog history.